I just killed a rat. Not with poison or a trap. I bludgeoned it with a stone from my back yard. And it took several times before it died. I felt a sort of sick to my stomach, near-crying sensation.
I feel that I kinda need to confess this because I don't know exactly why I did it and that's what scares me. Are rats necessarily bad in the backyard? Was I just protecting my property? But from what? Did I fear them messing with the garden beds or crawling into my house somehow? I dunno.
Can someone give me a reason for why I should have let it live? I just couldn't think of one. And from all I can tell, we're enemies, right?
This feels like a strange thing to blog about, but it just happened and I'm processing in real time.
What do you think? Should I've let it run away? Would you've? Or would you have killed it, too? And why?