last year around this time, holly and i were returning from new mexico from our first emergent gathering... it was a time of meeting new friends, spiritual and physical (is that dualist?... let's say 'wholistic') renewal, and beautiful surroundings...
as we came back into california, the grand prix fire had already begun... in fact, we drove on I-15 through the fire on our way home... and that week, the fires continued to unleash their rage, clearing out much of north east county, southeast county, camp pendleton, temecula... pretty much all of san diego county but here and much of san bernadino county as well...
we all sat in front of our tvs as ash blew around outside, hoping and praying that these fires would die down, that nature would rain for us, or that something - please god, something - would happen... finally, after a week or so, the rain came... and it assisted the firefighters in their efforts to not only contain, but squelch the fires...
around this time, my sister was going through some rough life stuff... and it amazed me about the parallels we find in nature...
sometimes the flames are so out of control, all you can hope to do is to just perhaps contain them from spreading elsewhere... but you get so tired... and you despair... and sometimes you give up... and sometimes you fight on... but just as nature sent her healing rain when it seemed the worst moment, so life (or god) offers us some relief... when does it come?... sometimes a bit too late, sometimes a little early, seldom when we think we need the relief...
anyways, last year i wrote this song from the tailgate of my pickup as the blood-red sky showered ash and rain down on me... it's called october... here is an mp3 of it...
october
by ryan lee sharp
wake up again, the gentle leaves are falling
wake up again, the wind has blown me through
another night of impatient waiting for you
and i've heard those who seek, that they will find it
well i'm seeking you
longing for your eyes, your perception of all she's running through
and how it's all in you
cause i try so hard
and i fall so far
and oh this life can be so hard
to see it how you do, but i want to see it how you do
sometimes so stuck, staring off into the valley
sometimes i run, sometimes i cannot move
but these moments are to shake us, but leave us unshaken
holding tight to you
what else is she to do
cause i try so hard
and i fall so far
and oh this life can be so hard
to see it how you do, but i want to see it how you do
and though we are hard-pressed, we are not crushed
and when the fire surrounds, you send your healing rain
and though we are hard-pressed, we are not crushed
and when the fire consumes, you send your healing rain
cause i try so hard
and i fall so far
and oh this life can be so hard
to see it how you do, but i want to see it how you do
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